Again...

I woke up early after getting to bed late. Again. Spend last night playing Black Ops. I owned for the most part of it. Stoner63 with Infrared Scope, ghost, hacker, steady Aim(been thinking to change it to Warlord.... but idk, ill try it later today)... Anyways again this nightmares dont seem to go away...
I have to strive everytime I wake up. Convince myself im already awake. Breath slowly and figure out how to keep a grip.
Im not even sure what the fuck Im dreaming that makes sweat and wake every thirty minute trying to scream.
Seems like the old rolling to the other side of the bed trick isn´t working.
Somehow I know where this path leads, I´ve felt this kind of restlessness and insanity before. Still I feel like there some hope down the road... That someone is going to save me.