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Stuck up insensitive jerk, over-rationalizing bastard. Simple minded, over confident and near visioned.
Im fucked up. Truthfully, I dont mind being the bad guy from the movie. In fact I hate heroes. Id love to be the joker. So fucking egoist that Im afraid to even let a single bit of me. Nobody goes through. Ever since I had to lock away most of my humanity from myself, it was also locked away from the rest of the world.

On the other side.
Im not letting go. Im not letting go life, im not letting go this illusion of you, im not letting go.
But it´s so scary to even think of taking the fucking risk and taking the chances...
I dont know whats wrong with me. I cant figure out how to reach you. As if im jumping of a cliff trying to grab your hand. I afraid trying to reach you would be suicidal.

There was this girl I was in love once... She was too much like me. I was too much like her. We just got along too well, as if we complemented each other. But destiny tried hard to keep us apart... So we walked both our own ways, sometimes meeting each other. We grew. Have we grew old enough?
Wonder if someday... someday.
I wonder...

If not, go away. Stay the fuck away from me and take with you all those fucking lies and games, im not interested in your chattery. I wont play your wicked game

Everytime the music stops, cold dark turbulent waters fill the room chilling me to the bones. Quickly moving to the music player, putting another song to play loudly in my headphones... Peace of mind somewhat comes back. Meanwhile bury my face in my hands and swim in this sea of agony...